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Jeremiah 20:9 (KJV)
Then I said, I will not make mention of him, nor speak any more in his
name. But his word was in mine heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I was weary with forbearing, and I could not
stay.
I feel troubled in my spirit at the moment, and as I was writing some new words in my website,
I thought that I would close out for the day.
I did proceed to close out one of my computers, this one is the one that I do all my Bible Writings On, and as
I began to close the time came to me while I was living in Indiana when I just come to the edge of the CLIFF and told the
lord... "I WILL GO TO CHURCH ONE MORE TIME, AND IF YOU, LORD, DON'T SHOW ME MORE OF YOUR PURPOSE, THEN I'LL WILL NEVER GO
AND SIT IN CHURCH AGAIN"
With that, I made my way to the CHURCH
OF GOD at Austin In, there to attend once more and being in the state of despair, I sat down in the pew, and church services
got under way.
It was during the service that THE HOLY GHOST SPOKE TO ME and this is what he told me to: " TAKE YOUR BIBLE
AND OPEN IT AND PLACE YOUR FINGER ON THE PAGE"
That was the instructions that He,
the Holy Ghost gave me.
Being Obedient to the Sprit; I opened
my Bible; Put my finger down on the following Verse;
Jeremiah 20:9 (KJV)
Then I said, I will not make mention of him, nor speak any more in his name. But his
word was in mine heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I was weary with forbearing, and I could not stay.
Now to say what I feel the Spirit is saying, and have seen over the years so many who have
felt that God is not with them anymore.
But before I go any further on what my point is, I would like to share with the reader of another time when I
was Pastor of a Church in the Coal Mining area of Evarts Ky.
I had a 24ft Motor Home, and had a PA SYSTEM WIRED WITH TWO LARGE HORNS (SPEAKER HORNS) MOUNTED ON THE ROOF.
I was driving through the town of Evarts and was preaching over the Speakers not realizing that there was this
one Lady that was praying at the same time that I was coming through the town.
She was ready and was telling the Lord that she had, had enough, and it was time for her
to quit serving the lord, and, wanting god to prove to her that he did love her, that he had not forsaken her.
I don't know what brought this about, but as I said afore, there is them that are, and feel that God is nowhere
to be found.
Just why is it that God lets us come to the place that we wonder why that he doesn't hear our prayers.
Jesus came to that same place, Yes, I said Jesus, he, when he hang on that Cross, he felt what I had felt, and
what that lady felt when she wanted to ask god... "WHY"
The son of God, being in the flesh, yet without sin, tasted death for everyone of us.
Hebrews 2:9 (KJV)
But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels for the suffering of death,
crowned with glory and honour; that he by the grace of God should taste death for every man.
Satan would have you, and I am speaking to someone who at this time is asking god the same thing, "WHY HAST THOUR
FORSAKEN ME"
Yes, even the Son of God, who was God in the Flesh, he came to the moment that he DOUBTED WHO HE WAS...
You might say that; "THAT'S IMPOSSIBLE"
No it is not possible, for he had to face death just like many will without feeling GOD'S PRESENCE and learn
to deal with it just like you and I will have to deal with.
The prophet Jeremiah wrote that for to bring the Revelation of Jesus Christ to lost Humanity, for god was preparing
for each of us, just like he prepared for me the verse in Jeremiah 20th chapter verse 9.
Just as he prepared this unlearned uneducated preacher, if you could call me that, for to foolishly preach and
to blast out on the speakers going through the town of Evarts Kentucky, and knowing that one of his children was ready to
throw in the towel, just as I was ready to throw in the towel there in Indiana.
Someone is ready to throw in the towel, but let this man that is foolish enough explain that down through my
Christian life, it has not been a bed of roses, in fact I have come to the time of DEATH and died at VANDERBILT HOSPITAL IN
NASHVILL TN where each morning the PHYSICIAN IN CHARGE WOULD BRING IN SEVERAL OTHER DOCTORS AND INTORODUCE ME AS " LAZARUS'"
AND WOULD SAY, " WE RAISED HIM FROM THE DEAD"
I HAVE LEARNED FROM THE APOSTLE PAUL:
Philip. 4:11 (KJV)
Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith
to be content.
What is the purpose of God letting his people to have to come to the time that they want to throw in the towel?
Here is one verse which if you will read and pay close attention too you too will get and draw a Revelation from:
Genesis 30:27 (KJV)
And Laban
said unto him, I pray thee, if I have found favour in thine eyes, tarry: for I have learned by experience that the Lord hath
blessed me for thy sake.
You will find those like Laban, who will
take advantage of the fact that God has appointed you to SERVE AS A SERVANT, YET FREE IN THE LORD, to be a blessing to others.
Now
comes the part where, Jesus, when he realized that he had done what God the Father asked and sent him to do, he CLAIMED THE
VICTORY BEYOND THE CROSS THAT HE WAS HANGED ON.
Here is where we fall under the load of the Cross, many times, and the most important REVEALATION is right in
front of us.
THE MISSION OF JESUS was;
To show proof of the Power of god the father;
Touch lives and make them whole.
Relieve them from the Powers of Darkness.
Feed
the hungry and clothe them with Righteousness.
WHAT
THEN, WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?
Isn't it strange how big the word WHY sounds.
Let me tell you why.
When I turned blue from a blood clot that was in excess of SIXTEEN INCHES LONG, and the hospital had no idea
what was taking place, as my wife come apart and called for someone to come to my bedside, and the Nurses came, this one from
the other side of the Hospital and another was called from home, and they realized that I was DYING and began to STABLIZE
ME and finally my heart doctor came in, and come to the conclusion that HE HAS A BLOOD CLOT
My
wife demanded that I BE REMOVED FROM THAT HOSPITAL AND MOVED TO VANDERBILT.
It took some time to arrange this, and finally they did stabilize me for the trip. They decided not to AIR LIFT
ME, for it would dislodge the blood clot.
Two women EM DRIVER great and qualified driver took me down the highway to Vanderbilt in
excess of 100 MPH and did a wonderful job at it.
Arriving at Vanderbilt, they wheeled me to my room that had been reserved for me, and then they took me to the
CT MACHINE TO EXRAY ME.
After bringing me back to my room, they PUT IN AN EMERGENCY CALL THROUGH OUT THE HOSPITAL.
Five doctors responded to the call, those five doctors grabbed me and put me on the gurney or whatever they call
it, wheeled me out of my room and headed to the elevator, telling those that were about to get on the elevator, " GET OFF
OF THAT ELEVATOR, WE HAVE AN EMERGENCY, then placing a key in the elevator making it express to the floor that leads to the
operating room, and down the hallway shouting " EVERYONE GET OUT OF THE WAY WE HAVE AN EMERGENCY.
They came to the Operating Room, and when they wheeled me into the operating room, the room was full of personnel,
of some which I believe to be ANGELS.
Now, before they got me out of my room, the doctor told my wife, "WITH THIS, WE DON'T HAVE
MUCH HOPE FOR HIM"
ALSO HE SAID: "HE IS A DEAD MAN WITH THIS"
Now I was awake all the time, form the time that I turned blue and they called my family to my bedside, and could
feel myself slipping away to die.
When they got me on the table to operate, working fast as they could, they had not time to put me to sleep when
I heard the Surgeon say " hand me the SCAPEL' AND HE PLUNGED IT INO MY CHEST AND WITH THE PAIN, WHICH WAS BEYOND ANYTHING
I COULD HAVE EVER IMAGINED, I CRIED OUT..." GOD, WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME"
Then I asked them to "PLEASE PUT ME TO SLEEP"
The my journey with the Lord began, first there was this ANGEL IN A WHITE ROBE, WITH BLOND CURLEY HAIR, THAT
CAME AND LOOKED ME STRAIGHT IN THE EYE.
HE SAID NOTHING TO ME, JUST LOOKED AT ME.
I thought it was a strange thing for him not to speak to me, but I did not doubt, for then I was taken into what
I call... "A WINDOW OF FAITH" there I saw THREE VISIONS.
I FIRST SAW A JACKASS STANDING LOOKING TO THE RIGHT.
THIS JACKASS HAD A LINE DRAWN AROUND THE OUTLINE OF HIS BODY, AND INSIDE OF THE OUTLINE WAS FILLED WITH PRECIOUS
STONES, AND I CANNOT BEGIN TO TELL YOU OF THE BEAUTY AND THE GLOW AS EACH WOULD MOVE AND AS SOON AS ONE WOULD MOVE ANOTHER
WOULD TAKE its PLACE.
FROM THERE I WAS SHOWN A TRAY OF LARGE DIAMONDS, ABOUT THE SIZE OF A BASKETBALL, EACH HAD PROJECTILES THAT PROTUDED
ABOUT FOUR INCHES AND ON EACH PROJECTILES WAS SMALLER DIAMONDS ABOUT THE SIZE OF A TENNIS BALL.
AS I WATCH THEM, ONE WOULD TAKE OFF AND RUN OUT FROM THE OTHER, AND THEN WOULD RETURN AND THEN ANOTHER WOULD
RUN OUT AND RETURN, THIS WENT ON THE ENTIRE TIME I WAS WATCHING.
THEN I WAS SHOWN SOME FLAMES OF FIRE, NOTHING SCARY, BUT SUCH COLORS THAT ONE'S MIND COULD NOT COMPREHEND, THE
FLAMES WAS OUTSTANING, SUCH AS WHEN THE BIBLE DESCRIBES THE FATHER AS A CONSUMING FIRE, EXCEPT THIS WAS AS THE THRONE OF GOD
IN COLOR, THAT THE BIBLE POTRAYS.
THEN I COULD HEAR THOSE THAT HAD GONE ON TO BE WITH THE LORD, THEY WERE ON THE OTHER SIDE
OF THIS WINDOW OF FAITH, AS I CALL IT, AND THEY WERE TALKING AND LAUGHING AND I COULD NOT SEE THEM BUT I KNEW THAT IF I WAS
TO BE TAKEN OVER TO THAT SIDE WHERE THEY WERE, THAT I WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO COME BACK INTO MY BODY.
YOU SEE I LEFT MY FLESHLY BODY AND WAS PLACE INTO THE PURE-UNDEFILED LOVE OF GOD.
I TASTED AND FELT WHAT THE LOVE OF GOD WAS LIKE.
IF GOD WOULD GIVE ME NOTHING ELSE, BUT LET ME EXIST ETERNALLY IN THIS TOTAL PEACE THAT I FELT, IT WOULD BE ENOUGH.
I TELL THIS SO WHEN YOU READ THIS THAT WHAT I AM TRYING TO SAY TO YOU...
YOU MAY FEEL LIKE QUITTING, BUT AT THAT PRECISE MOMENT THAT IS WHEN GOD IS THE CLOSEST TO YOU.
YOUR FLESH WILL NOT FEEL HIM, AND THE SPRIIT OF THE MESSENGER OF SATAN THAT IS IN ALL OF US, WHICH LIKE PAUL,
GOD REFUSES TO REMOVE, BECAUSE YOU WILL BE LIKE SATAN, YOU WILL ASSEND ABOVE THAT WHICH GOD WOULD HAVE YOU TO BE.
AT THAT MOMENT, DO LIKE I DID, AND JESUS DID, AND JOBE, AND MANY THOUSANDS JUST " COMMEND YOUR SPIRIT INTO THE
FATHER'S HANDS" Luke 23:46 (KJV)
And when Jesus had cried with a loud voice, he said, Father, into thy hands I commend
my spirit: and having said thus, he gave up the ghost.
REMEMBER; WHEN THE CHIPS ARE DOWN, YOU ARE A WINNER EVEN IF YOU DON'T KNOW IT AT THE TIME.
IT IS NOT WHAT YOU ARE, OR HAVE EVER BEEN, IT IS WHAT JESUS CHRIST WAS ON THAT CROSS, AND WHAT THE HOLY GHOST
IS TO THOSE THAT CALL ON THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST.
DON'T GIVE UP, JUST GIVE IT TO JESUS AND LET THE MAKER OF OUR SALVATION TAKE CHARGE.
YES JESUS HAS PROVIDED A WAY OF ESCAPE THROUGH ANY TRAL. NOW GO AND DEMAND YOUR WAGES LIKE JACOB DID AFTER SERVING
14 YEARS FOR A WIFE.
JESUS DEMANDED BEYOND THE CROSS HIS REWARD, AND THE REWARD IS "JESUS CHRIST IN YOU"
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